The above paragraph was sent to me by a close friend.
We share the same birth year and the same proclivity to walk into a room and
immediately forget why we were entering that room in the first place. When we
do that often enough as we are now doing, our first thought is Alzheimer’s or
the onset of some type of dementia. To allay my fears I often start going
through the multiplication tables just to prove to myself that I am not losing
it and that there has to be some other explanation for this sudden loss of
memory. Now that I know that it is the door’s fault, I can rest a little
easier.
But what
about those times when I am in a conversation with my wife while driving down
the road or sitting at the kitchen table and a thought comes to mind that I
want to share; but by the time it is my turn to speak, I have forgotten just
what it was that was so important for me to impart? The car door has been
closed for a while and there is no door in the kitchen. Whom do I now blame in
order to calm my fears of losing my mind as I am growing older?
Actually
I have found an excuse for my forgetfulness: information overload. Because I am
so intelligent, because I have read so many books and articles, because I have
absorbed so many facts and figures over the years, the computer in my brain is
slowing down because it has amassed so much knowledge. I am not a six-year-old
whose brain is quite empty and who can learn a new song in five minutes. It
takes me five days because my brain is so full. No wonder I forget so quickly
sometimes.
Works for
me, does that explanation. In fact any explanation for my sometimes
forgetfulness works. But no explanation, no matter how farfetched, sets aside
the truth that I am growing older and that the end of my life draws closer and
closer with every passing breathe and every fading memory and forgotten
thought. It’s not dementia that frightens us so much it is death, or certainly
the awareness that I am closer to death every day.
Fortunately
those forgetful moments, at least in the present, even though they arrive more
and more, do not dominant my life. For that I am thankful even as it is
embarrassing when I have to admit that I forgot what I wanted to say or why I
walked into that room. Perhaps if those moments were more and more frequent, as
they are for so many of my contemporaries, I might not be so flippant as I now
am. Perhaps I would really be worried and would look for the truth rather than
some made-up excuse even if I did not want to know the truth. As they say,
ageing is not for the timid or the faint of heart.
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